Monologue.
Yes. All the bullshit you keep getting is definitely unfair. Of course you don’t deserve any of those reoccurring drama in your life. Most of the times, its not even your fault. But no matter how much nonsense you’ll have to put up with, remember that you will overcome it eventually. I’m pretty sure this isn’t your first time of having to deal with emotional burdens. I’m sorry to mention that this won’t be the last time either. As long as you opt to have any sort of human relationship / interaction, you will have to be prepared to face drama. It is an inevitable risk.Yes, it will get tiring. Annoying even. Having to face reruns of ridiculous drama. But hey, you’ll get through it. Sure, it’ll upset you. Sure, it’ll drain you out. But always remember: Besides the existence of people who bring you down, there are also people who genuinely care about you. They like you for who you are. They may not know you as a whole, nor do they have much in common with you. But know this; they will be your support system when you feel like all hope is lost. You are loved.
You don’t have to face this nonsense alone.
I can’t for the life of me find the artists website for this D:
If anyone knows, please tell me, I remember the artist was great
EDIT: Thank you <3 Artist is Arita Youko.
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Source: humbleapologies
Hey I should totally finish writing that agriculture essay. That’ll keep that stupid self-pity voice quiet for a bit.
I can’t find the right words to describe whatever that is going on in my life. More than anything else, I know I am scared. I fear of many things. Unpredicatble things which are totally out of my circle of control. I wish to confidently say that I know where I am headed and what I am supposed to do. There is an inner turmoil; one of which I am not quite sure of what caused it and when it will end. I need peace. I need to function. I need to be rational. I wish I could just turn-off that part of my brain which constantly reminds me of what to worry about. So much doubts and regrets. So tired.
So much self-pity. Fuck it. I really can’t be bothered anymore.
On a more positive note, I skipped Economics lecture. Yay.
I need you to send me your part of your work. They’re supposed to be fucking powerpoint slides. Don’t send me some stupid 20-pages pdf doc at 1:30 in the morning and expect me to turn it into slides for you. I fucking compile the slides. I’m not gonna make slides for you. Not at fucking 2am. Not when I need to study for my thermodynamics test. Not when I had a stupid fight with my boyfriend. Fuck. Fuck this shit. Fuck you and your lazy ass. Fucking excuses. All that you know how to do is give excuses. You never get any shit done. Damn it. I may not be the brightest kid in this class. My pointer ain’t anything to be proud of. Yeah, I’m a loner and yeah I hate interacting with humans. Especially people like you. But I get work done, damn it. I promise to do it and I do get stuff done. I don’t make empty promises and then apologize and say “oh I’m sorry for troubling the group. I’ve got no time. Help me make my slides pleazzzz”. Fuck no.
/rant over
I’m sorry for all the times I’ve let you down; I know I’m not doing enough. I’m sorry for all the promises I break; I know I’m bad at keeping them in the first place. I’m sorry upsetting you; I’m not good enough. I’m sorry. Sorry. I’m sorry for apologizing so much; there’s really nothing else that I can say.
I would love to have some of this. Kinda like a reward for trying my best to get through week 11 and 12.
P/S: The Unit Operation test was a disaster. Even the survey held this morning was a disaster. *sigh*. Today has been such a disaster :(
(via venomshock)
Source: carrieunderwoods
No harm in being a lil positive today.
Jessie’s noobish render of the Buster Sword.
Hi.
This is what bored people do y’know… Take pictures of their food.
I have learned now that while those who speak about one’s miseries usually hurt, those who keep silence hurt more.
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Source: larmoyante
Dear anyone,
I’m tired. I’m tired of letting people down. Though others let me down most of the time, I tend to forget about it as soon as I can.
She is tired.
